Episode 01: When It All Falls Down
Tears of Redemption:
When our spirit is exhausted from holding up the image we present to the world, it will choose to drop it all. This is often referred to as depression, a state in which our inner self seeks rest and respite from the burdens of external expectations. It's a signal that our mental and emotional well-being require attention and care, prompting us to reevaluate our priorities and seek the necessary support.
The Weight of Trauma
Lotus’ heart shattered into a million pieces as she watched her spouse of 8 years walk out the door, leaving her and her two children behind along with the responsibility of the life they agreed to build together. Alone and overwhelmed, she struggled to make ends meet as a single mom who had a new $2100 lease and all the higher bills to go with it. The weight of loneliness, financial strain, and the betrayal of abandonment gnawed at her, chipping away at her strength.
In a desperate attempt to numb the pain, Lotus sought solace in the arms of a man who whispered promises of love, commitment, and partnership. But her vulnerability only led to deeper heartbreak when she realized she was nothing more than a fun distraction for him and maybe he was the same for her. She put more trust into the idea that the words he spoke carried truth, realizing it was all a game felt like a fall from 10,000 feet and a hard brick plaque for the landing. The second betrayal crippled her leaving her not only with a broken heart, but a severely broken spirit, plunging her into a dark abyss of despair.
With a heavy heart and foggy mind, Lotus’ days turned into a haze of sorrow and hopelessness. She began dreading her job, her responsibilities, and could no longer put on a brave face for her children. The weight of her mental anguish pushed her to abandoning everything she held dear- quitting her job, ending her lease and sending her children away for months.
In the depths of her despair, Lotus slowly began to realize that her reckless behavior and mental breakdown were manifestations of unresolved trauma. The wounds of abuse, betrayal and then abandonment had festered within her, clouding her judgment and leading her down a destructive path.
The Breakthrough of the Spirit
It was then, in her darkest moment, that Lotus was able to hear the faint voice of her spirit breaking through from within. Struggling to hold on, she sought solace in her faith, turning to God for guidance and strength. She began to understand that true healing could not come from running away or numbing the pain, but from facing her trauma head-on and seeking divine intervention through God’s word.
With newfound determination, Lotus sought help within the church to unravel the tangled web of her emotions and experiences. Through spiritual therapy and the support of her church, she unearthed the roots of her suffering and began the arduous journey of healing.
As the days turned into weeks, Lotus slowly reclaimed the important pieces of her life that she had almost let slip away. She came to terms with her choices, reconnected with God’s spirit, and became a pillar of strength for her children once again.
Through her faith and perseverance, Lotus found the courage to confront her demons and embrace the healing power of forgiveness. She discovered that her brokenness had given way to strength, and her scars had become symbols of resilience.
Today, Lotus stands as a testimony to the transformative power of redemption. Her path was filled with pain and loss, but through it all, she found the unwavering love of a higher power that guided her toward healing and restoration. With a heart mended by faith and a spirit fortified by perseverance, Lotus emerged from the ashes of the life she had burned down, ready to become the light within the flame.
